Hey all,
I’m amazed at how much people i haven’t seen in ages have changed. And then i think about it and realise that I’m one of them.
It gets me thinking how people are so vulnerable or susceptible to change? Our environment, the people around us, their reactions, their ideas, media… whatever plays a part whether big or small. It’s scary yet exciting to try to picture ourselves just two years later. Yeah two years is all it takes to change a person, two years is all it takes for one to grow. It took me two years to change my perspective, it took me two years to accept the things i cannot change.
Well if you see it from another point of view, in two years i learnt a whole new culture. In two years, I’ve met some friends I’ve grown to love. In two years, I grew and matured a lot. In two years, i went through so many roller coaster rides i think i’ve lst count. In two years (and slightly more), here’s where i stand today.
In many ways, if i could i wouldn’t mind reliving the entire JC experience again. Even if it meant going through all the horror of tests and whatnot.
Anyhow, the future is not for us to know and i’ve learnt that unexpected things always happen and they usually catch you offguard. Yes, sometimes you just cry over those things and lose yourself in the pool of unhappiness, yet sometimes you can’t believe your luck and how blessed you are, you break out in tears of joy.
Somehow, God has his way of blessing us with surprises in our lives especially when we least expect. They may not be what we want but we should always believe that’s what God wants for us. If he brings you to it, you can bet he’ll take you through it.
I don’t know how you’re gonna take this but I feel so blessed and lucky this year. This year couldn’t have been a better year for me, srsly. It’s scary that time is actually flying and half a year has passed. I’m so thankful for the past 6 months or so. And i’m saying this cos life was unkind to me before.
I’m definitely trying to live each day to the fullest, trying to cherish every minute every second of this phase in life. Cos i know i can never turn back the clock and i know i’ll look back one day and wish things will just repeat itself once more. Somehow i just end up hoping that there’ll be this replay button that i can hit as and when i want to.
Anyway i dont know why but i have this strange thought that i havent gotten the hang of how life actually works. Yeah like how do we know what decisions we should make, how do we know what opportunities to seize, how do we know what risks we should take?
What a ridiculous thought!
Sometimes i just wish there is a memory eraser to remove the unhappy times and misery in my memory so that i’ll only be left with the happy, joyful awesome moments to remember. But i suppose those miserable moments comes with the package! One cannot do without the other.
Hate it when stupid thoughts drift around and lingers in my head.
