Hey y’all!
School has been crazy as usual. Nothing is normal is uni hahha. At this point in time, everything seems overwhelming. I mean not only my academic frustrations, even my CCA commitments are driving me nuts and not to mention finding God in everything I do. It has definitely been difficult over the past few weeks, I must say I barely survived my hectic schedule having to run from one end of Engine to the other end of Biz most of the time. I know I could have done a better job in everything I did but it’s like this.. In these days, when you’re caught in a energy usurping situation, you find yourself wondering if that job is worth your effort and time in getting it accomplished. So much so, I have to admit that everything I’ve been trying to do are ’sub-standard’ and definitely not meeting my expectations. You may say I am imposing too harsh rules on myself or even setting goals that are impossible but I certainly cannot settle for the lousy position I am standing at now.
Oh yes, I am plain exhausted and I can’t wait to go to bed but I have to take some time to reflect, to stop and think of how far or how little I’ve moved from day 1.
There are countless frustrations that are bugging me now, honestly I don’t know where to begin. Hahah. In fact I’m pretty disappointed in myself nowadays, I just can’t can’t can’t can’t open my heart to others. It is terrifyingly scary that I’ve been failing to reach out to the people around me. I can’t explain this but nowadays I find myself so tired, so exhausted both mentally and physically I just can’t find the strength to be extra nice to the people around me. Okay right, this cannot go on. I’ll try, I promise I will try to do something about this. I’ve been a bitch to many people and I’m really sorry for whoever I’ve been mean to.
The other major thing that’s bugging me are my grades. I am still in dreamland srsly, I have to wake up now and get my act together.
Okay now I can barely keep my eyes open, going to collapse soon. Good night!
Oh yes, this is tougher than I thought it would be but in the next 4 weeks, I’m going to fight to the very end even if it’s going to be a losing battle.
Because with God, all things are possible.
